Sometimes people needs to sit back and relaxs...forget their burden and don't think of their problem, enjoy life!
setelah peristiwa bentak membentak, pindahan dan peristiwa status kemarin ini, gw berusaha untuk memblocked pikiran gw dari hal2 negatif. I may not refer my self as a jerk and a selfish as* Hole, but I do now where I stand, and do have guts to tell myself it is not completely my faults.
gw ga pernah mau bener2 mengingat apa yg menjadi core masalah dr semua ini. awalnya hanya sepotong status yg sangat menyakitkan hati...gw berusaha untuk diam dan ngalah, tapi semakin menjadi lah mereka seolah I wasn't there at all to witness everything their laughing at, their praying at, hanya untuk menyindir gw. oke lets say gw ga kesindir, but they were really try to make me even angrier by removing me from their friendlist. and can you guess what?? they in here is refer to my sister in law...what a terrific family.
I was being such a jerk I may confess...
after 2 weeks without solution, I made really damn annoying status to pay them back. are they angry? of course...like I told before the one who can hold their anger and only think that I can't do the same nasty things like them is only ME, not them. they called me, yelled at me, send me an annoying text, and voila, thats making me realize they don't worth it after all. so I get rid of them through my day, I demolished my last anger by keeping my promise, taht I would never pay any attention nor finished and find the solution of this situation anymore. it is not worth to try...
*SIGH*
well, I never thought my self as the greatest person ever, but I do guarantee, I would never hurt anyone's feeling especially family. when I do HAVE to do that, is only a pay back from what they do to me. glad is over now... so I can sit back and relaxs ^_^
it's been very hard to not angry to the things we hate the most.
I believe nobody wants to be ignored, me either.
it's been a while since i've asked him to follow up on this sh**t, but none of my request granted by him.
it's been upside down now...I am too angry to solved this problem, yet I dont want to deal with it any longger.
bright side is, I'm glad now I know that I've been giving out the reason and know it hy they are angry to me.
simply start by one clicks away on facebook statusT_T
its been a hard and tiring day yesterday....
its been our part two moving day...
i'm tired literally, outside and inside.
Pagi kemaren, krn rencana mau pindahan gw dah khusus ambil cuti, kerumah mertua untuk packing sisa2 brg. entah kenapa gw kepengen bgt acara pindahan gw beres hr itu juga, entah krn emang gw dah capek beres2, entah krn emang ada sedikit harapan buat gw untuk ga balik2 lg di rumah itu
it is oke is all oke all the way, gw dah ultimatum diri gw sendiri untuk mind my own bussiness, ga ada lagi yg namanya nangis2 gara2 di'rasanin' sm org. lo-lo gue-gue.
tp pas ajak biya nginep disitu rabu malem, biya panas tinggi dan dia sempet nangisin kasurnya di kamar lamanya yg udah gw pindahin ke rumah nyokap gw.
gw berasa egois, gw berasa mencabut kenangan anak gw dimana dia tinggal, dilahirkan dibesarkan disitu selama hidupnya krn ego gw, seandainya gw bisa lebih maklum lebih ngalah maka anak gw ga akan ngerasa sedih krn dipisahin dr rumah yg membesarkannya....but I guess I'm not that strong!!
gw berusaha buat ga merubah apapun dari kehidupan anak gw, dia masih punya eyang kung dan eyang Ti yg sayang sm dia. buat gw itu cukup utk ga memperdulikan apakah dia punya sodara2 lain diluar lingkup itu, I think enough smp disini. I won't invite my anger to stay over this night;p
to make everythig short, gw suka pindah kerumah lama gw, gw suka tinggal dan menetap bareng nyokap-bokap gw lagi, ,gw suka anak gw hidup dan dibesarkan di tempat dimana dulu gw dibesarkan, gw suka bgt. yg gw ga suka adalah gw terpaksa melakukan hal itu bukan pada waktu dan alasan yang tepat...I hope things will be better!
#posted only for Biya, like I don't give a DAMN care on others#
